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"old hate mail."

ells ranted on and on about this @Friday, February 22, 2008 [ 9:47 AM ]

so i just got back from my Extra Classes, walking by the way. and i have no clue what to do here. since my brotha's all busybusy you know? yeah.
so i was going through some of my old stuff and i came across millions and millions of angry letters. well, not really millions you know what i mean la :P
because you know me, when i get angry i take it out on pen and paper.
so, i read this one i labelled 'Teenagers' and i thought i'd blog it :DD
i was kindof reflecting and it got me pissed. :DD thank yoooou's. here goes.

7thFebruary2008 [not really old :PP ] ;1.11am

my story? there's not much to tell really.

well actually thats a lie. my life's been up&down, twisted&rounded, upside down&inside out.

All the drama of a high school, ive been through and ive yet to turn fourteen. whoa.

Before Form 1, 7th Grade, me and my friends bitched about stuff that dont even matter anymore.

like things we cant believe we freaked over. like swearing? yeah what the hell is with that?

i now find that extremely stupid. and other worthless crap like that. oh, please.

every guy back then, we thought we were 'in love' with? please, we were, what?, ten? what did we know?

Now, we go through tougher shit.

we deal with backstabbing bitches, cheating boyfriends and razors.

oh yes, you know your not a highschooler over here in Brunei if you havent had at least one on-purpose encounter with a sharp object. i've had more than several. more than my fair share.

those guys who think them all that? they're jackasses and they dont know shit when it comes to relationships.

they play with your hearts and cheat right there. and other shit, a backstabbing bestfriend? please.

for a bitch it all goes down in the girls room. i swear, if you hide in one of them cubicles for an hour

you'll hear disgusting and good-for-nothing shit on you by people you thought were friends? please.

outside in the courtyard their all smiles and laughs, please, we've got balls not to go up there and punch you in the face.

ive been through everything a highschool has to offer? if there's more then i swear i can get through it.

ive been through a boyfriend who left for my bestfriend, i wont swear on her i absolutely love her to death.

ive been through a kind-ofboyfriend, i dont really count him, who most probably just wanted to brag they broke up with me? yeah.

another boyfriend? stupid jackass was the worst one. cheated on me, never admitted it. he hurt my friends. he played with my feelings. four time till it sunk in he was never gonna change. thats another story.

how i knew the guy was cheating? everyone knew, everyone saw and of course everyone told.

even i saw. even i knew. please. and the cubicles thing? i locked myself in and the bitch came in to bitch about me.

ha.

and also. a boyfriend with everything i wanted. with a hitch. a very big hitch. he loved a close friend of mine. shit. that broke my heart man. big time. i felt like in the relationship, there wasnt just me and him. there was also a me, him&her. you know how much that sucks right? yeah. ever since the beginning i knew what i was getting myself into and i let myself fall.

but things seem to be looking up for me right now :]

there's this guy? he's won me over. he's gotten me. a few text messages was all it took and i was practically his. no consequences. nothing ive got to worry about. other than mine and his constant shyness with eachother of course :P HAHA. im not aiming for anything here, im not gonna try to make it to the waaay future, im gonna concentrate on right now and maybe we'll see because i do know im in love, and im gonna enjoy it. i honestly think this would be a non-drama free relationship :DD

this is a hate-mail with a sweet ending. x] good night, im yawning my arse off.

so, there it was? haha. x]] i know its sort of a hate mail turned sweet in the end? HAHA.

okay, so what am i to do now? ahh fuck it. Friendster Bulletin Board here i come :]]

this is how she rolls; 10.11am