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"frustration."

ells ranted on and on about this @Wednesday, June 18, 2008 [ 8:51 PM ]

current song: Peksman by Siakol.
current read: Atonement by Ian McEwan.
current craving: friends.

im quite frustrated right now, annnnd ive decided to take it out on the blog. :]
its crazy because, most of the reason for all this frustration is the book im currently reading now, which is [refer up there, please.]. i swear, that book is just MEANT to frustrate me like nuts.
its just.. that STUPID KID! YARRGH. stupid, stupid Briony. thinking she knows everything. thinking Cecelia needs to be protected from Robbie. she's such a bloody prima donna. like, and she's only what? 12? 13? and she keeps going 'OH, IM GOING INTO ADULTHOOD NOW THAT I'VE ACTUALLY "MET" A PERVERT, YADA YADA..' sighsigh. Robbie isnt even a pervert, he's just a guy whose attracted okay? to put it into 21st century speak, he's a horny guy, mmkay? sighsigh.
crazy, i was never angry cos of a book before. sigh.

OH, learned new word! its presumably a dirty one, i just dont know what it means? haha. right. :P

second reason im frustrated?
my mother's a bloody perfectionist. and what frustrate's me is she expects ME to be perfect when, surprise surprise, IM NOT. sighsigh. and she expects EVERYTHING to be all so nice and perfect and when its not she takes it out on me and my brother. GRR.
a bit of a joke towards her and she gets all frustrated and p.o.'ed and everything! okay, so i know she's tired. but daddy has a tougher job, okay, and he's not all like that!
i love my mommy to bits okay. but i love daddy to bits AND PIECES. in other words, i love daddy more. he gets angry at us for actual reasons.

third reason im frustrated? well. i dont know. but yeah, i know there's a third in here somewhere.

***
watched Kungfu Panda just now, quite funny i say XP. but then, we had like two hours to roam around the bloody mall till we would get picked up by mommy and the mall is so bloody empty. especially if its just you. SIGH.
my shoulders were bloody tired. my feet were too and i was DESPERATELY seeking for a chair to sit on and not be disturbed as i am transported into the little world of Cecelia & Robbie.
so, i hide away in my refuge. the bookstore. :] i swear, the people there prolly know me by face by now. i just sat at the back there, among all the baby books, and escaped into fantasy land. till my brother found me, and we started going crazy
[well, i did because of drinking Red Bull. i swear, that drink has TOO MUCH SUGAR. its so blooody sweet. but yummy. the aftertaste is quite bitter though, but it really is addictive.] and started reading baby books! i thoroughly enjoyed Lady & The Tramp. until mother showed up and we had to go.

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in other news! there are so many good books out there. :] i even leafed through those "ADULT" books, you know those novels with the obscene stuff painted in front of a man and a woman, and found it was quite interesting! in all i leafed through the books
To Bed A Beauty, To Seduce A Bride and To Pleasure A Lady all by Nicole Jordan.
but no way ever is mommy gonna allow me to read that book [take a look at the front cover and you'll see why.]
there were others too! like something something Pleasure. quite nice.

OH, OH. and there's an ALL AMERICAN GIRL 2!! its called READY OR NOT by Meg Cabot! i didnt know that! i was just leafing through and realized that it was in fact the sequel to All American Girl, Samantha Madison who saved the president from assasination and had the president's son fall for her! haihaihai. i need to have it. you hear me? i need it! just like i need the sequel to The Principles of Love by Emily Franklin, and thats quite impossible since im stuck in Brunei where it isnt available. SIGH.

yes, my readers. i do get ~~very~~ quite frustrated due to the fact i dont have books to read. and yeah. sigh. sigh. SIGH. if you give me a book ill love you for life :3 anyone? well not LOVElove la. just, bestfriendbestfriend i-owe-you-big-time love. :]
just like how i love fellow bookworms Niks & Chellerz! :33 haha.

***
i was again frustrated just now when i spotted Izzi Chu in the mall, but with NO SIGN of my dancing queen, Eddie Chu. SIGHSIGHSIGH. SIGHSIGHSIGH. i miss chu. :( :( :(

im currently very socially deprived. VERY socially deprived.

excuse me as i hit my head on the table now.
if you think im kidding, you shall be proven wrong.

P.S. click here to meet Mr. Dimples, the one who we 2Aers ga-ga'ed over last year. he's a sweetie too. :]

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