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everyday, since a couple of weeks ago, someone waits for me outside my classroom during dismissal, and his face just lights up like a Christmas Tree when he sees me go through that door.
the first thing i look for when i get out that door is him, if he's not already running towards me with a big hug on his heels that is.
even when i'm still in class, sitting by the window. he'd look for me through the window and when he spots me would wave with an excited face. i'd wave back, and would literally count the minutes till i would hug that boy again.
it makes me really happy in the pants to know that someone is counting the seconds for me to walk out that door.
he's just adorable, my nephew-son-guy-person. :) the way he dutifully waits outside that door for the bell to ring, for me to walk out that door, if his friends are around him or not. i once heard his friends call him, but he called back that he wanted to stay and wait for me. ish! makes me happy like a clam.
he's absolutely adorable, really. i think he's about six years old, and he's been over to my house twice. which is how me and him know each other. he really is adorable. gah, did i say that already?
another thing, when he comes and hugs me, he just doesnt let go. as in, he hugs you tight first, then he lets go. it's really sweet la. he's adorable. like, seriously. i think i fell in love with him. (L) ish! not in that way. hahaha. but really, he makes me happy as a clam.
almost as much as Jol makes me happy, but not quite.
ish! today made me want a kid. :( especially one like my nephew-son-guy-person! (really, to me and my brother he goes by Auntie Leah's son, cause that's the name of his mom whose close friends with our mother.)

the Novelty Games, i spent with Andy and Niks. with the additions of Jas, Mar and Ruth. but yeah, Jaybee, Andy and Niks were the stars today.
and guess what, me and Niks were being total pedophiles the whole day. well, most times. :P the other times we just wished we had a kid of our own to cheer on. ish!
Andy was like "first you go for gay men, now you guys are being total pedophiles!" HAHA. :P
today was a blast, really. the only downside was me and Niks discussing that thing. you know, that BAD thing. that makes me all emotional and shitty.

gah, he wasnt here today. i was half-wanting him to come, half-not wanting. this is shit la. im getting all emotional now, so i'm going to get off the subject.
what made the day better was seeing my nephew-son-guy-person! and no people, im not getting all pedophile-ish. he's just adorable and makes me happy like a bitch to see his face light up! gah.

im getting all crazy. not pecause of the the nephew-son-guy-person really, just the 'what if's' swirling around my head, and it's making me crazy. i need a break, really. gosh.

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why cant you just talk to me, and make it all better? please?


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darlinks.

way back when

thankyouu.