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a teenage vow in a parking lot, till tonight do us part.
i sing the blues and swallow them too.
-Hum Hallelujah; Fall Out Boy.

while reading Chelsea's latest blog post, i couldn't help but hum this line in my head. well, more like the first line really.
have you read it? yes, no? well, if you have. then you'd understand what the line was all about.
ill copy and paste the highlights.

Honestly, I do. I miss those people who’ve left for someplace beyond this place. Not in a dying kind of way, I mean leaving, as in going somewhere else leaving us here. I’m not saying we’re rotting with misery here, we’re not. Honestly, we aren’t. At least, I’m not. I just miss them, that’s all.

And Ella. I mean, she’s in a different school now with a whole new set of buddies. I know she’s having the time of her life at St George’s. Hey Ells, I know you’re reading this, just wanted to say we miss you and it’s not the same with the shorty here by our side, constantly snapping photographs with her phone.

And you know, Eddie’s leaving. That’s just...uuurgh. Eddie, one of the awesomest people I know, is leaving next year. For some other school (can’t blame him though). Man.

I suppose everyone WILL leave and the only way to escape it is to leave yourself. Just go then. There’s isn’t much to do but get over it and move yourself.

So many close and somewhat close people gone and going in less than just nine months. I guess there’s nothing really we can do but make the most of who and what we’ve got left because they could leave, anytime, and without warning just like Chi and Ells. They just leave, don’t they? They rarely ever turn back and find our paths crossed.

One by one the bestfriends leave. Please, please don’t tell me Aikks is leaving next, I do not know how I can cope with that. Haz is leaving for college and so is Kevin. So there really is a downside to having friends in different grades. They just graduate and leave huh?

And when we, I graduate, I suppose we’d all have to split up at the crossroads. Not knowing if ever again we’d see each other. Would we even remember? I had so many memories from kindergarten, so many friends, but I can’t even remember half of them. Is that the same then, later? We’d store the memories, locked up in our heads, to forget the friends we swore we won’t?

So as the days turn to weeks turn to months turn to years, the faces that used to be beside you, promising not to let go, not to forget, start to walk away and be replaced by the mere photographs you hold in your hands. I guess that’s just how it goes.

And we move along.

- Chelsea.

these are just the highlights people, click on Chels' name to read the full thing. :)

first off, i'd like to say. i may have my own awesome bunch of friends over here, but it doesnt mean i miss you any less. believe me there are times when a friend of mine says some thing funny, and i laugh and look around to see if you guys find it funny too. guess what, you guys arent there.
every single time i laugh, i wish you guys were there. it's no fun being an Aichella without the AICH. xD you guys have been there since what, 3rd, 4th grade? gah.
and the 2Aer, or 3Aer. i love my 3Ber like seriously, but i miss them too. Chewy especially :) [GOOD NEWS, EDDIE SAYS HE MIGHT BE TRANSFERRING TO SGS NEXT YEAR! XD]

i give her credit for being able to list all those people down man, i swear i would cry.
but i'm willing to risk it, and start listing people down here. because my blog need's to know the people who came in and out of my life, to know me. :)

i remember, there's Jannah Valerie. no, woman i havent forgotten you. you were the awesome best friend i had when i developed feelings for "boys." HAHAHHA. bestfriend's, primary 5. we drifted away, primary 6 because we were put into different classes.

i remmeber Klarizza Aggabao. the girlygirlycoolcoooooool bestfriend who i loved like a crazy person. :) she, Jannah and I were like the trio. she moved away before Primary 6, she's in Florida now, no shit. and she's gorgeous, i have her Friendster. i visit it regularly. :)

there was also Elaine, she was my best friend like, primary something. no not the Pinoy one, the Chinese wan. :) i know, i know she may be like a dog to Nicholle but she's the nicest person. the only reason we stopped being friends was Nicholle herself. grr.

then, there's the infamous Darwin Jesse Batiao. GOD, I MISS THAT BOY. everyone literally teased and taunted him because he seemed "gay." oh, hell no you di'nt. he isn't gay okay. he was just raised that way, seriously. everyone taunted him for me being his absolute best friend, i still dont get why. especially Jonathan and that group, calling him gay and stuff. grr. i hated it when they did that, because Dar was the best guy friend a girl could have. :) i remember he moved away to Nusa Leila for Form 1, and every single week. every single Friday of the week, he wouldn't fail to call me up and ask about my week. then, we'd totally have a talkfest about everything and anything we havent filled each other in. he went back to Phils last year, but i saw him again THIS YEAR! GOD, HE'S TALL NOW. i went Mall-ing with him, and it was fun. :)

there's Wathmi, my cool Sri Lankan bestie when i was a total loner, back in Primary 4.

there's Kuya Amboy and Kuya Joel Libut, the brothers who lived with me while i was a kid. Amboy, who was widely known as Josef in school, was my total best friend. he was a year older than me, and he had the super cool best friends! like Ate Jan Jan and yeah. HAHA. yeah, i still remember her! she's Form 5 or 6 now if not mistaken. she was gorgeous. :) he was the one who heard about all the guys i thought i liked, all the girls i thought were really mean and stuff. ish, he was like a girlfriend to me. Kuya Joel was a different story, he was the parent of the three of us.
we parted when they moved to Phils and our family moved to a smaller home. i miss them, they're all scattered across the globe now. and not in a good way. :S
i miss Kuya Amboy, i wonder how he's doing. hmm.

there's Kinzanoor Danish, the Pakistani bestfriend from primary 5 to primary 6. yes, secondary ruined us when they put us in classes so far from each other. we got our own friends, (me the Aichellas and 1Aers; Liz, Anand, Ed.. that time. she had Srinidhi and.. yeah.) and it drove us apart. she moved to JIS two years ago, and i hear she is absolutely loving it there. she's still online in my Windows Live Contacts, but we never talk anymore. i see her sometimes in The Mall with her friends, and we exchange a wave.

ish, there's more really. :) there's Donna too, but i never really was too close to her. :(
im sorry if i didnt mention you, dont worry i still love you to death. there's just people's names going in and out of my head and yeah. i miss them.

i absolutely without a doubt love my friends in SGS now. :) but i [and Damia, i know she told me :D] cant help but WISH that there was a way to mix and match our PDS & SGS friends into one school. gosh.

heh, last year i was super close to erryone in Form 2, i had kiddies who looked up to me in Form 1 (AUMG, I MISS JASMINE GARDEQUE!), and i had Kuya's in Form 4.
now, it's just us Form 3's, and my favourite Form 4's. i love. :)

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eek, going totally off topic. i ran into this pretty little dress in this pretty shop in QLAP Mall just now, and i met my perfect prom dress. refer to the picture i've posted up in my about me section. :) i love the hat.
i had mom ask them if i could try it on, and they said i looked like a total princess. luckily, Mommy has gotten closey-close with the people of the shop and were willing to give us a 20 per cent discount while she told erryone else that the dresses were ALREADY discounted.
the dress was 55.90, she was willing to give it off for 45.00
BUT SADLY, we dont even have THAT much dough. but mommy reserved it, for me. which made me happy. :) closer look? here. it reaches till my knees. :) i looked like a princess.

i came online being all emo and scared about something, looking for Niks. she wasnt online so i went for the next best thing, blogging. talk to you later Niks? :) if i'm not YFing that is. which i sorta wish i was? :)

darlinks.

way back when

thankyouu.