ellaellaeh

.. meaning, i dont think of what i blog. gah.
currently its 11.50pm, and im online. everone else is asleep and yeah.
yesterday was fun though, about 4.30am annnnd Niks, Barry and Damia were still online. XP
but like, by 3am, my windows messenger list was so bloody alive. harhar.

currently Chellerz, Fang Yi, Audrey, Jazz [daughterkuu XP], Janno, Niks, Paths, Wryck, MJ, Musab are online and i am being harrassed by Audrey. HMMPFHHH. :/ HAHAHHAHAH. XP this girl bah. like to bully me. also Hannah, they both like to bully me. probably because im easy to bully but ho'wellll. hahaha.

i am currently viewing older comments of mine, and i notice most of them compose of nonsense from the bestfriends. x) well, thats what bestfriends are supposed to do isnt it?
flood your comments page with bloody nonsense. hahahahhaha. funfun though. :]
regular commenters were.. Aikks, Chels, Jihah, Chellerz, Audrey & etc. hahahha. :P

my first day in SGS, i was bloody nervous/quiet. not how i usually am. but then, this helped me be more s'okay for the next day. :)

Lil BlAcK rOsE
01/2/2008 9:38 pm

Ello dear:) thanks 4 adding me..wat do u tink of d new skul?sory..i knw i was weird:P HAHA!..dammit!vanity!..bt dat's gud u knw..same lyk me:D HAHA!c u around in skul!talk mre!dun b shy:)

hahaha. :P yeah. from the freak who bullies. GRR. XP

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you know, i feel hated by my mommy in thehouse. cant help but feel like she shold chillax, kay? haha. i mean, im sure my brother feels the same way larr. we're compared to each other so much that, it really does suck.
my brother's almost taller than me.
my brother's cleaner, more responsible than me.
i study harder than my brother.
i eat more veggies.
my brother obeys my parents more.
my brother cooks more.
im not as rude as my brother.

GAH. the list goes onn and onnn. what im most nagged about [other than the taller than me fact], is that im the girl in the family and im quite lazy to do house chores. my brother rules them though, vacuuming, ironing, washing clothes, cooking rice, bla bla bla. their all 'why shouldnt you be more like your brother? he's doing your job..' yada yada.
also my appearance is what im nagged about. mommy goes 'why are you wearing converse sneakers with your pink skirt?!, why are you wearing a jacket that makes you look fat?!, why are you wearing that top, you have a million shirts there ah you look like such a boy, why dont you wear that pink flowery one instead of that black one?!, why do you need to wear a tie?! why are you burping in public?! why are you wrestling with your brother?! why are you fighting your brother ah?!'
GAH. IT GOES ON AND ON. BASICALLY, MY MOM'S COMPLAINING THAT I DRESS LIKE A TOTAL TOMBOY. PUHH-LEEEASE. i dont like being all girlygirly okay? jeez. daddy doesnt complain. HMMPFHH.
[also that i act like a guy :S]

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its so stupid, i completely forgot about Youth Fellowship today. sighsigh. i wanted to go chat with Rach and the girls :/ plus, David's prolly looking for me.

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i am currently suffering from Grey's Anatomy & One Tree Hill withdrawal. where's George O'Malley screwing things up when i need him?! [T.R. Knight actually. totally shame he's gay ://] Where's Alex Karev being a total ass to people when i need him to be?! where is Meredith Grey bitching about sex and whatnots to Cristina Yang when i needit?! where is Izzie Stevens being a total sweetie to the patients when i BLOODY NEED IT?! where is Mark Sloan being a total manwhore when i need him to be?! where is The Chief being all chief-y when i need him to be?! where is Derek Shepherd's totally awesome hair and his broodiness about Meredith Grey when i need it?! huh?! HUH?! GAWWDDD.
AND [im not finished about One Tree Hill yet. x)] where is Peyton Sawyer being an awesome broody bitch when i need her to be?! where is Haley James Scott & Nathan Scott being all marriedcouple-in-highschool when i need them to be?! where is Brooke Davis being all chirpy when i need her to be?! where is Luke Scott being all literature-y when i need him to be?! where is THE RAVENS kicking some other bball team's ass when i need them to be?! where is Whitey Durham screaming to the bballers when i need him to be?! where is MOUTH narrating when i need him to be?! [i have a thing for Lee Norris XP] megawwsh. hahaha.

basically, i need good ol' fashioned drama in my life again. :((

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ive come to a very depressing part in my comments page where friends just realize im infact transfering schools. :(

AIKKS - AHHHHH!!!bkit..
LORD SANA D MAG TRANSFER SI ELLA..
TELL HER RENTZ DAT PLZ!!..
d naman aku galit sayo bestie...ma miss lng kita talaga!!!
hehe tanx pla 4 d early greeting!!..
lub u talaga bestie!!..ingatz lagi ah..
and PDS ka parin am sure!!:)
- bestie stay in PDS ah..
-i am realli gona mish u pare!!!...
hop u hav fwenz der din!!TC

Kuya Hazmi - sis wat does aik's mean "hace fin their...hope u have friends their?"r u going to other skul kah sis???='(

CHELSAYY - YOU CAN'T LEAVE. YOU ARE HEREBY BANNED FROM LEAVING US AND THAT'S AN ORDER.

RCHELLERS - HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY NEW YEAAAAR BABE! All the best for 08 (even if you'll be moving to a different school, WHY SHOULD YOU AND WHERE?!!!?? :[[) I'll totally miss you loads. Lavya babe! Mwahs~
- ....I MISS YOU LIKE FUCK GIRL. P.E. ISN'T THE SAME WITHOUT YOU AND NAJIHAH GOING CRAZY

BARRYBOO - HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO.=]
what do u mean u wont be around ........

JIHAH - hey bestie
miss u XD
i forgot to tell youh
im currently in pds
haha
mama, come back!!!
eheh
ur suga misses youh
y did u have 2 move?!
anyways love youh XD
-193-
[she was supposed to move to somewhere else kasi she failed.]
- hey bestie
yea ur da only 2aer who moved
n missing u like shit slut
ahah
dont cry im gonna cry 2
='(
(to late)
haha
anyways keep in touch n miss n love youh
-193-
-

QAWI - Heyyy hey Ells. How r you. Do u hav a tattoo by any chance??? BTW. i misshh of seein you pass by me. You kno wat alim is really sad a lil. More like every time thou. He really care for you as a fren. You've got other frens than him and he sometimes a lil jel to see u wid them. Dont get angry by his attitude of greed. everybody hav it. Me too. BTW R u still gnna be in pds?? i hope soo. I dun kno anythin

P.S Dont tell alim Anythin What i SAid

[Alim was a really close friend of mine who fell for me and told me, and i was kinda shocked then i started talking tohim again. :) i miss that guy.]
-Hey ells. Hows yur self it hav been a Month and Some weeks and Some days and and some hours and some minutes owh owh and 47 seconds since i have seen you. Im miss you gurl. Yur smile make the day better, Yur hug make the rain calmer(if ther is such word) and Your presence make people happy(Not happy like Mad thou). Happy always. BTW Hows yursef in yur new school??

(: XoXQXoX :)


MY DARLING TWIN BROTHER ZUL'IZZAT! - hey lala...
why didnt u tell me dat u changed 2 st. george????
i was dying 2 meet u in da first day n people said u changed 2 st. george....so boring dat class without u...less filipino girlz...hehe

k,bye
XxzatzatxX

THE GORGEOUS FOOTBALLER NAJ - Ells. You're so mean. You whisked your effin arse all the way to St.George. I hate you! And u didn't even tell me!Or drop a line.Or text me.Or gave a testi.You din't even say that u mished me.
I'm gonna cry!!!!God.I hate myself for sayin dat.Why'd u have to leave?It's boring in skool.

Always mishin ya's.
Your mate.Gia Hamyds.

-LOL.S'okays.I mished ya loads, love.It's so empty w/o yer in school.
Cheers.XD.

ANDY YAP - ella..


D.A.R.E.N. [Danice, Aida, Richelle, Ella, Najihah] - ells
i really miss
D.A.R.E.N
come back 2 pds wh!!!
or am i gonna drag ur sexy ass there?!
HAHA
i miss youh
partner in crime
bestie
mama
slut
-nudgie193-



yeah tha's it. XP i never got a reply from Andy Yap after -ella. HAHAHHAHA. XP that boy ah. never been one with the words.

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speaking of Andy, Richelle and Eddie's been telling me that he's stopped talking to them after they told on him to teacher. Andy, they have every right to tell on you. you were going overboard okay? its not their fault.
[if Andy reads this, he'll probably stop talking to me too. gah.]

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WHOOP, 12.36AM.

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GAH, I HATE UNSTOPPABLE WEDDING! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! THE BLOODY THING FINISHED ALREADY AND THE ENDING SUCKED! GIBAEK DIDNT EVEN MAKE IT TO PHUKET!
HIM & MIHO NEVER HAD A BABY!
SAMBAEK AND SUJEONG NEVER GOT MARRIED!
HYEJU NEVER FOUND HER MAN!
IBAEK FOUND HIS WOMAN, BUT NEVER FOUND OUT THE NAME!
MRS SHIM AND CHEF YUN NEVER GOT MARRIED OR WHATEVER!

GAHH, IM SO MAD! [think Sujeongstyle when she goes Hulk XP] gah. i doubt you all even watch it. sighsigh.

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seems my talkfest today with niks will consist of climax's and jim sturgess. i shall enjoy. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. XP

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1. What Person On Your Top 6 Do You Talk To The Most?
* hmm. the HCPOfreaks larr. :] Audrey, Ruth & Fang Yi.

2. What time is your alarm clock set to?
* 5.55am? haha. school alarm ler.

3. Are You In Love?
* ;) i've a boyfriend havent i?

4. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
* i wear flipflops whenever.

5. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
* im a picture girl HAHHAHA, be in the picture totally. :P

6. What Was The Last Movie You Watched And With Who?
* Kungfu Panda with Brother.

7. Do any of your friends have kids?
* hmm. HAHAHHAHAHA. i dont know? :P

8. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
* everyone's been called lazy once in their life.

9. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
* naaah. i dont wanna fall asleep really. but i do, eventually.

10. Are you a cuddler?
* not to anyone and everyone la. haha. i could be.

11. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate milk?
* CHOCOLATE

12. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
* yes.

13. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
* god knows when. :(

14. Do you know anyone who lost their dad within the last year?
* i dont think so.

15. Do You Have A Trampoline In Your Back Yard?
* I FRIGGIN WANT ONE YIII. :]

16. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
* its a bitch about bitch world. everyone's a bitch toa t least someone.

17. Did you watch cartoons as a kid?
* this is a very unusual question. :P course i did!

18. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
* every line? HAHHAHA. um. JUNO. and a bit of SUPERBAD. :D

22. Are you still in love with your ex?
* nope. i was hoping for friends, but no chance of that happening now.

23. Does anyone like you?
* my boyfriend likes me? haha.

24. Do You Do Your Own Dishes?
* yepp.

25. Ever Cry In Public?
* when i cant help it. ive cried in class last year, ive cried in class this year. :/

26. Have you told a secret to someone this week?
* hmm. have i? haha. donno. OH, yes i have.

27. What was the secret?
* gah. i dont think you ask this question and actually expect an answer.

28. Do you think you could EVER be in love?
* yes. :)

29. Would You Ever Marry Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
* not covered. but with one here and there, yeah. i want a couple too. :]

30. What Did You Do Before This?
* watched Fairly Odd Parents. XP

31. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
* i cannot remmeber. haha.

32. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
* at least 2.

33. Do You Eat Breakfast Daily?
* nooooo. i dont. i feel like biting the head off anyone who tells me to eat breakfast.
i.e. my mom. :/

34. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
* it depends on the day. if like, im bored. its really slow. but if im having fun, the time's too fast. :(

35. What are you doing right now?
* hoping i dont get pneumonia or whatver from the freezing-ness.

36. Do you use sarcasm?
: when i wanna. XP

37. Have You Ever Been In A Fight?
* yeah :/

38. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
* HAHAAH. naww. but in lessons, yes. :P

39. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
* no. :(

40. Do you believe in ghosts?
* yupp.

41. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
* both larr.

42. Do you like mustard?
: not really. yucky.

43. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach, Or Back?
* i like to sleep on my stomach, and on my back. but i am a very movy person in bed. XP

44. Do You Watch The News?
* sometimes?

45. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?
* im only aware of my chicken pox scars. you wanna know how i got it? surprise! chicken pox. :P

46. Last person to make you mad?
* mommy.

47. Do you think you are someones first love?
* i.. dont know. haha.

48. What do you want to do before the day is over?
* not freeze to death? hahah.

49. What last made you laugh?
* that Transformers cleaning van thing in Fairly Odd Parents and whatever in MTV Movie Awards 08 XP

50. Reading any books?
* i am randomly clicking on books so yeah. haha.

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i miss my boyfie. :(



mygawdd.
im trying so very hard to search for the right code so that my bloody blog wont post just ONE post in the entries list, but i have no idea how. GAH. i think ill just edit the original code and remove the entries navigation, because the original code enabled you to view ALL the entries in place of the welcome message. yeah. i think ill do that.
now, to find it.

---
yay, its done!
but now i have to fix the bloody code so that there is navigation back into my blog entries. sheesh. hard work.

YAY, I BLOODY FIXED IT UP! now to blog. haha.

***
guess what time i woke up this morning? 11.45am. haihaihai. XP
you wanna know why? [you know ill tell you anyway XP]
because i stayed up till 4am last night ModelMayhem-ing with Niks.
GAH. go visit ModelMayhem.com! NOW, NOW!

we spent the night giving eachother links going 'AHHH, THIS GUY'S HOT!' and, and yeah. GARR.
it was such a gay night though. when we realized EVERY SINGLE ONE was gay. they were also pornstars but yeah we didnt care.
I WAS HEARTBROKEN BY BRENT CORRIGAN! FHUCKING BRENT CORRIGAN!
i.. i... i loved his smile. :( the Green Eyes. [Olive, Niks says XP]
but guess what. pornstar and GAY. BLOODY GAY.

theres also this other guy, Frank Fanucchi. he's Niks one. XP he aint no pornstar. but he is infact gay.
oh, and he's an adult performer gah.

theres still hope in DJ Owens. :) dont ruin it saying he's gay or a pornstar okay. I DONT CARE ANYMORE! HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. :P
me and Niks made this promise not to care anymore, and just enjoy. what the hell? HAHAH.

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i was also chatting with Aikks yesterday. fun,fun that bestfriend. :] i miss her to bits.

i also signed up for Gaia. was quite fun, but my damned connection was super lagging so i bloody gave up for the day. hahahhaha.

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yeah, even up till now im still ModelMayhem-ing with Niks. gah.





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PRIVATE PRACTISE IS COMING! EEEEEKKKKK!!
you know howmuch of a fan i am of Grey's. i watched ONE episode of P.P., bloody awesome. :] but Grey's is still my thing. i need a bit of McDrama ;]]

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my gawdd, this is so bloody random. ill leave you with links. :) if only i could leave you with photos. sigh. hahahha.

http://www.modelmayhem.com/pic.php?pic_id=48035b4d13998&date=2008-04-14%2009:25:39&id=117911&pid=6358454
DJ Owens

http://www.modelmayhem.com/pic.php?pic_id=471d3fb42e86f&date=2007-10-22%2020:26:31&id=546663&pid=4453031
Brent Corrigan

these ones are my choices lang. hahah. ;) baboo.

Labels: random

current song: how to write a love song by Parokya Ni Edgar.
current read: Nicholas Sparks'
current mood: *smilesmile.



you see this boy? he's MINE.
okay AUDREY, MINE. HAHHAHAHAH. im so random, i just felt like doing something silly today. hmmmmm. here's another silly thing. ill be posting up my conversation with the witch. HAAHHAHA. kidding.
okay, thinking of it im not gunna. XP

whatever, im so moody. harhar.

audrey's also a freak. a very abnormally thin freak.

okay, so im jealous. >.< HAHAHHAHA. SHE'S STILL A FREAK! :P
and she doesnt like guitar hero, freaK!



sadly, she's still my bestfriend and i still love her to bits. HMMPFH. XP

Labels: VERY random

current song: I'd Lie by Taylor Swift.
fucking lawa that song man. :] excuse the swearing? harhar.

***
OH, yesterday after logging offline because there was no one to talk to online because Niks was brb-ing, i started reading one of the books that Niks downloaded for me, i went for The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks. i finished it in 2hours++.
i was Notebook-ed. HAHAHHAH. RIIIGHT. :P
im serious, i was like sobbing and i wasnt finished with the bloody story yet. it's just that it completely got to me that Allie did not remember Noah. SHE DIDN'T FUCKING REMEMBER HIM!

okay, so for those of you whose been living in a rock ill tell the magical story of Noah & Allie.
the movie is quite different from the book by the way. the movie starts all the way from how Allie just moved in and everything, while the book starts when they were already seperated.

anyway the story goes like this, it starts off with this old guy reading a notebook to this elderly woman. the story was about Allie & Noah. their story goes like this. Allie goes to New Bern for the summer cos her dad's this big tycoon and whatever. and she meets Noah at the fair thing. and Noah was SO VERY PERSISTENT to get her to go out with him. you should like see the movie how he did it, the ferris wheel thing. HAHHA. :P anyway, when she did go out with him. they fell deeeply in love and everything. but her parents did not approve kasi, well she was the daughter of some high society guy and he was, what? a poor guy. so yeah.
when Allie had to go home for the summer they said to each other 'The Summer may be over, but we will NEVER be over.'
Noah wrote to Allie every single day for two bloody years. but he never got any reply. so one day he just stopped writing, he sent his goodbye letter and that was it.
turns out, Allie's mom hid every single letter and Allie had no idea. they were both thinking that it was just a summer thing between them.
and then, Allie falls for Lon. he's her parents ideal man for her. she gets engaged, and three weeks before the wedding? she sees an article in the newspaper. ABOUT NOAH. in it he rebuilt this beautiful mansion. the very same mansion Allie and him lost their virginities. he promised her he'd fix up that mansion for her. and he did.
Allie traveled to New Bern to see Noah. and, they fall in love over again.
the next morning, Allie's mom comes over. clears the air and tells her that Lon is on his way to New Bern. Allie's mom tells Noah she always liked him, but she only wanted what was best for her daughter and everything.
Noah BEGS with Allie to stay with him. this is where the old man closes the notebook and takes a breath.
the elderly woman goes 'what happens to Allie? who does she choose?'
the man smiles and says 'who do you think she chooses?'
'i think she chose Noah.'
the man smiles.
the elderly woman says 'i dont know who i am. help me remember who i am.'
the man goes 'you're Haley, a lover of life.'
the woman nods. they walk to her building and she stops and takes a good look at him.
'what are you doing?' he goes.
'i dont want to forget you so im trying to remmeber you.'
the man smile sadly. 'it doesnt work that way.'

he leads her to his room, where a dinner was set up. there he continues his story, that Allie did in fact choose Noah, and they were very happy together and had lots of kids.
'i think i've heard this story before.' the woman goes. 'was this a true story?'
the man nods. suddenly he says 'i love you Allie.' and the woman looks at him.
'i love you too Noah.' she goes suddenly and starts crying. 'i remember Noah, i remember!' then she gets worried 'for how long will i remember?'
'who knows?' Noah says and he's worried too. he hugs her and he looks at the clock.
he could sense that the next minute, everything would be different. when the clock strikes twelve, she looks at him confusedly. 'who are you?' she goes. then she starts to panic. 'GET OUT OF MY ROOM, WHO ARE YOU?' and, and..

this is where i cry. where i cry so hard.

the next day, the man collapses. it was the day before their 49th anniversary, and he just knew it was time for him to go. it was killing him that he hasnt held her hand for years, and it killed him everyday that she wouldnt remember him.
he looks at the notebook he's reading from, on the front. it said
dear Noah, thank you for writing our story in this notebook. when i forget, read it out to me and i will remember. please do not be angry with me when i do not remember, but i will come back to you. Allie.

that night he sneaks into Allie's room, and they die together.


you should watch the movie, or read the book. it's just sad. im sorry i spoiled it if you were about to read or watch. XP but yeah. hahaha.

i dont take anything back when i dub Nicholas Sparks as the king of sad love stories.

***
you know i was just saying this morning that if i do go back home to Phils, i would be so totally misunderstood 'cause, like, im so used to speaking with little malay bits in them, and when i speak Tagalog it sounds so very wrong annnd now plus the Chinese accent that comes and goes. i'd be the laughing stock, i tell ya.
and the fact that i grew up in a foreign country and studied different subjects and everything would make it so very hard for me.

sooo, i do hope im not going to go back anytime soon. :]

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ill post later, if i do have anything to post. :]

Labels: entertainment

current song: Peksman by Siakol.
current read: Atonement by Ian McEwan.
current craving: friends.

im quite frustrated right now, annnnd ive decided to take it out on the blog. :]
its crazy because, most of the reason for all this frustration is the book im currently reading now, which is [refer up there, please.]. i swear, that book is just MEANT to frustrate me like nuts.
its just.. that STUPID KID! YARRGH. stupid, stupid Briony. thinking she knows everything. thinking Cecelia needs to be protected from Robbie. she's such a bloody prima donna. like, and she's only what? 12? 13? and she keeps going 'OH, IM GOING INTO ADULTHOOD NOW THAT I'VE ACTUALLY "MET" A PERVERT, YADA YADA..' sighsigh. Robbie isnt even a pervert, he's just a guy whose attracted okay? to put it into 21st century speak, he's a horny guy, mmkay? sighsigh.
crazy, i was never angry cos of a book before. sigh.

OH, learned new word! its presumably a dirty one, i just dont know what it means? haha. right. :P

second reason im frustrated?
my mother's a bloody perfectionist. and what frustrate's me is she expects ME to be perfect when, surprise surprise, IM NOT. sighsigh. and she expects EVERYTHING to be all so nice and perfect and when its not she takes it out on me and my brother. GRR.
a bit of a joke towards her and she gets all frustrated and p.o.'ed and everything! okay, so i know she's tired. but daddy has a tougher job, okay, and he's not all like that!
i love my mommy to bits okay. but i love daddy to bits AND PIECES. in other words, i love daddy more. he gets angry at us for actual reasons.

third reason im frustrated? well. i dont know. but yeah, i know there's a third in here somewhere.


***
watched Kungfu Panda just now, quite funny i say XP. but then, we had like two hours to roam around the bloody mall till we would get picked up by mommy and the mall is so bloody empty. especially if its just you. SIGH.
my shoulders were bloody tired. my feet were too and i was DESPERATELY seeking for a chair to sit on and not be disturbed as i am transported into the little world of Cecelia & Robbie.
so, i hide away in my refuge. the bookstore. :] i swear, the people there prolly know me by face by now. i just sat at the back there, among all the baby books, and escaped into fantasy land. till my brother found me, and we started going crazy
[well, i did because of drinking Red Bull. i swear, that drink has TOO MUCH SUGAR. its so blooody sweet. but yummy. the aftertaste is quite bitter though, but it really is addictive.] and started reading baby books! i thoroughly enjoyed Lady & The Tramp. until mother showed up and we had to go.

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in other news! there are so many good books out there. :] i even leafed through those "ADULT" books, you know those novels with the obscene stuff painted in front of a man and a woman, and found it was quite interesting! in all i leafed through the books
To Bed A Beauty, To Seduce A Bride and To Pleasure A Lady all by Nicole Jordan.
but no way ever is mommy gonna allow me to read that book [take a look at the front cover and you'll see why.]
there were others too! like something something Pleasure. quite nice.

OH, OH. and there's an ALL AMERICAN GIRL 2!! its called READY OR NOT by Meg Cabot! i didnt know that! i was just leafing through and realized that it was in fact the sequel to All American Girl, Samantha Madison who saved the president from assasination and had the president's son fall for her! haihaihai. i need to have it. you hear me? i need it! just like i need the sequel to The Principles of Love by Emily Franklin, and thats quite impossible since im stuck in Brunei where it isnt available. SIGH.

yes, my readers. i do get very quite frustrated due to the fact i dont have books to read. and yeah. sigh. sigh. SIGH. if you give me a book ill love you for life :3 anyone? well not LOVElove la. just, bestfriendbestfriend i-owe-you-big-time love. :]
just like how i love fellow bookworms Niks & Chellerz! :33 haha.

***
i was again frustrated just now when i spotted Izzi Chu in the mall, but with NO SIGN of my dancing queen, Eddie Chu. SIGHSIGHSIGH. SIGHSIGHSIGH. i miss chu. :( :( :(

im currently very socially deprived. VERY socially deprived.

excuse me as i hit my head on the table now.
if you think im kidding, you shall be proven wrong.




P.S. click here to meet Mr. Dimples, the one who we 2Aers ga-ga'ed over last year. he's a sweetie too. :]

Labels: random

listened to another song. (:
i bet you people never heard of it.
its called Waves and The Both of Us by Charlotte Sometimes. ill post it up later after i tell daddy's story of The Little Boy Playing Basketball. =.="
that story has no ending i tell you, and something different ALWAYS happens to the little boy. HAHAHAHHAHA. i've been listening to it for the past 14 years, trust me.
here's another story that was SUPPOSED to be scary. read how it unfolds.

there's a bunch of highschool kids going to take a vacation to celebrate their holidays. they wanted to go to but they got lost on the way. so they just followed and followed and followed where the road took them. suddenly they reach a deadend. the deadend is actually a sign that says NO VISITORS ALLOWED. they blink and suddenly its a big old mansion.
they wanted to sleep na, so they went into the mansion. suddenly, the door opened by itself, and when they got in, it closed by itself.
it was locked.
suddenly, they heard footsteps behind them. it was an old man with a torch.
"you kids lost?" he asks. and they nod.
"you came to the right place, you were jst in time for the show."
"what show?"
"WHAT?! you guys dont recognize me? im that guy from Backstreet Boys!"
*does a little dancemove.
kids: OHHHHHH! cool, BACKSTREET'S BACK, ALRIGHT!


honestly, daddy can be so mean. backstreet's not that old. durr. HAHHAHA.

WAVES AND THE BOTH OF US BY CHARLOTTE SOMETIMES
I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt

But I can't wait forever, boy

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my waist
There's no need to wait

I want the dance of the air
Run your hands through my hair
Releasing your breath
As I undress

But I can't wait forever, boy

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I want your hands on my hips
I want you kissing my lips

I want the moon and the stars
I want the whole nine yards
I take off your shirt
You pull up my skirt

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

And the moon and the stars
And the look in your eyes
Better find it's way, into me
And your skin
On my skin
The bones that we're in
Better slide your way into me

quite... dirty the lyrics but i like the song. :)

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Our Song by Taylor Swift.
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

[Chorus:]

Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

[Repeat Chorus]

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"
And when I got home, before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song

I'd Lie by Taylor Swift
I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love
He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke, I fake a smile
But I know all his favorite songs

And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him..
I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on
Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long

He sees everything in black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him..
I'd lie

He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you

He'd never tell you, but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up and pray for a miracle

Yes I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Oh, and it kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him..
If you ask me if I love him..
I'd lie

Girl of My Dreams by The Moffats
[Chorus:]
You are the girl of my dreams In my heart, I believe
You are the girl of my dreams, baby
Of my dreams
All alone, in my room
Wishing that you were here
Without you, in my arms I'm holding back all of the tears
Without you in my life I'll never be satisfied
[Chorus]
Sometimes I feel I could have been better to you
All I wasnt is a chance
To prove that my love is true
Without you in my life I'll never be satisfied
[Chorus]
Baby let's go back in time
To when our hearts would shine
And I could hold you tight In my dreams at night
[Chorus(Repeat 3 times)]

When You Look Me In The Eyes- Jonas Brothers
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

Uptown Girl by Westlife
Uptown girl
She's been living in her uptown world
I bet she never had a back street guy
I bet her mama never told her why

I'm gonna try for an uptown girl
She's been living in her white bread world
As long as anyone with hot blood can
And now she's looking for a downtown man
That's what I am

And when she knows what
She wants from her time
And when she wakes up
And makes up her mind

She'll see I'm not so tough
Just because
I'm in love with an uptown girl
You know I've seen her in her uptown world
She's getting tired of her high class toys
And all her presents from her uptown boys
She's got a choice

Uptown girl
You know I can't afford to buy her pearls
But maybe someday when my ship comes in
She'll understand what kind of guy I've been
And then I'll win

And when she's walking
She's looking so fine
And when she's talking
She'll say that she's mine

She'll say I'm not so tough
Just because
I'm in love
With an uptown girl
She's been living in her white bread world
As long as anyone with hot blood can
And now she's looking for a downtown man
That's what I am

Uptown girl
She's my uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl

My uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl
My uptown girl
You know I'm in love
With an uptown girl
My uptown girl

A Lonely September by The Plain White T's
I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

I Can Wait Forever by Simple Plan
You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...

How To Write A Love Song by Parokya Ni Edgar
The 1st part of this song, I guess
Should start with something sweet
Cause lovesongs often do ,and you know
Me, i'm such a geek
For songs that I can sing to you
And I'm hoping this could be one
And I hope that you would like
Me...este...like it when i'm done

[VERSE 2:]
The 2nd part is easy to mess up with
Somethng cheesy
So I better choose my worsd cause I
Don't want it to be mushy...
Coz' that's the thing with lovesongs
And that's the tricky part
It's hard not to sound corny when you're
Singing from the heart

[CHORUS:]
And when the chorus comes, I must come up
With something clever
Cuz For you it's just a lovesong but for me
It's now or never!
And though I tried my best to make it
Beautiful and true
I Could Never Make A Song As
Beautiful As You...

[ADLIB:]

[CHORUS 2:]
And when the chorus comes again, I must
Say something clever
Cuz For you it's just a lovesong but for me
It's now or never!
And though I tried my best to make it
Beautiful and true

I Could Never Make A Song As
Beautiful As You...
I Could Never Make A Love Song
As Beautiful As You...

some of the sweetest love songs i've ever heard. :D

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i made up a character in the story im writing with Rach, and im refraining from writing anymore because i made him so scary, that he's frightened me out of my guts. gawshh. Rach, i think you have to take over for a bit. buzz me when you read this, kay?

Labels: random

changed her skin.
well, obviously not her own skin of course, as if she could just peel her skin off and stick on another one you just buy from some pharmacy.
euugh, no. that's just quite morbid i tell you. especially when the only thing holding your skin together is superglue or whatever.
and wont it wrinkel up when you move around, and like wont the glue dry up and...?
i realize, i am in fact moving out of subject. harhar. XP
but can i say something else? wont the superglue sting your raw flesh? like, seriously. wont be good for you. unless they invented this new type of superglue which has like skin cream and, and face cream and exfoliating stuff innit then that could work.. i think.
dont think many people would go for the peeling of the skin thing though.
unless you use like, some totally painless way of peeling your skin off?

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urgh, you see i've gone totally off subject with something so morbid. THAT's how bored i am. i had no plan to start off a blogpost with peeling off skin.
but my daddy used to tell me that's what Michael Jackson did to his skin, so he wasnt a nigga anymore. harhar. dontknow if he means it though. XP OKAY, STOP ELLA.
i just need to say. i changed my blogskin again. i've gone quite moody. why, oh why does it seem like looking for the perfect blogskin seem so tiresome?
its like, searching for your perfect wedding dress. i hear you just KNOW if its YOUR wedding dress you know. is it true? the feeling must be very pretty. :]

this blog is starting off very randomly i tell you.

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i've had this nice little thing going for Peksman by Siakol and Alipin by Shamrock right now. Peksman is actually like, a rock song thing. but it's real coooo (: and Alipin is a love ballad. i actually didnt know what either Peksman or Shamrock meant y'know. so i asked around and here's what i got..

Peksman- swear. like, as in.. i swear. example:
Cristina Yang- are you sure you're not with Derek just for the sex?
Meredith Grey- no, i swear. its just the moment after that when everything's so peaceful annd....
HAHAHHAHAHAHAH. out of subject there. well, it didnt go like that exactly XP but quite similarr. anyway, Grey's Anatomy fans would know what comes next.

Alipin- it means something like slave. i guess it makes sort of sense about the song. like, ill be your slave or something.. HAHHA.
also, i found out what Mermaid is in Tagalog [while watching Aquamarine with the family XP], its Serena. like pronounced Se-reh-na. and also learned that in Filipino, the Merman was quite opposite. as in, its body was fine but it had a head of a fish. *shivers. freaky. they called it Shakol i think? notsure, it slipped the head. (:
anyway, yeah. nice songs. check them out, if you're Pinoy. otherwise, you'd never understand. :P

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you know,everyone says i read super uber fast? yeah im kinda like that. as in, no i dont have eyes that move as fast as the speed of light (wow! XP) but like, when i get curled up with a good book, NOTHING can seperate me from that book till i reach the last page. i tell yout hat. my family gets so annoyed when they keep calling for me, my brother specially, and when they peek into the room and see im reading their all oh thats why... yeah.
nothing can take me away from a good book. im determined to finish the thing like, ASAP. (: so, even when theres some natural disaster and you have to go climb a bloody mountain [not that i mean an actual mountain drenched in blood, i just use the word bloody alot nowadays. sort of like the expression 'my butt!'.] i'd probably be holding the book up while i unconsciously step on wherever. hahaha. so you really cant distract me from something i've passion for. unless, you're my mom. HAHAHAHAH. right. XP

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speaking of my brother [i mentioned him up there somewhere didint i? haha.], i have serious privacy issues here. i mean, he's got his own room. why dont he hang there? and he sleeps on my bloody bed. [no, if you havent got the picture, i dont have my period or whatever.] he has an awesome room for himself, which is perfectly usable. there's aircon, there's a couch. there's a humongous TV [even i dont have a bloody TV]. there's his PS2. there's his game collection. his guitar hero thing. his archie comics. he's got a dvd player. and.. everything! he's got a bloody exercise machine in his room! harhar. :P so why cant he go sleep there? in his own room? where its pretty cosy. sighsigh.
and like, when i enter my room from the living room or somewhere, craving for alone time he comes in and starts talking endlessly and, and.. he just doesnt get the hint when i say i wanna be alone. how much more straightforward can i be when i say 'i wanna be alone in my room, kay?' he just doesnt geddit i tell you. sighsigh.

advice anyone? i'd gladly take it. not that i dont love my brother of course, i jsut get too much of the guy. sighsigh.

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you know what, i just reloaded myself credit yesterday. and like, i've got 70something cents today. honestly, what's up with me? im currently punishing/torturing myself by not texting. ANYONE. sighsighsigh. that includes Joel. even though i know he'd reply. or, yeah. SIGHSIGHSIGH.

big SIGH SIGH SIGH. garr. like, BIG MAJOR GRRRR. haha.


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was quite random and hyper just now in Hua Ho Kiulap. i was all talking about cows and MOOO. and and yeah. i was so hungry by the kebab in front of me. jeez, i practically begged for one from mommmy. yeah. XP

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watched Aquamarine witht he family just now. as in THE WHOLE FAMILY. with daddy and brother and mommy. total chickflick. HAHAHAHHAHA. i could tell daddy enjoyed it y'know. he kept smiling, and laughing. and he had that big smile on when Ray kissed Aqua and yeah. HAHAHAHHAHA. XP
and my brother was smiling in the parts you were suposed to smile but quickly stopped smiling in case someone saw 'im.
and mommy was, enjoying it too.

i prefer watching chickflicks alone y'know. unless its with my friends, so then we'd go AWWWW together. but knowing the Aichella's they'd probably dub it as corny. HAHAHHA. :P but with some of the 2Aers, Richelle and Eddie mostly, we'd be in total chika mode! even eddie. hahaha.
which is why i've got a date with Niks to watch Made of Honour when it gets out. or when we're both free, if its out already? rightright Niks? :D :D
i've been suffering from McDreamy deprivation. WHOOPS i mean McDrama deprivation. for those non-Grey's fan [YOU SUCK! KIDDIDNG~~], i am referring to Grey's as they have the totally highschool nicknames for the hot guys there. like McDreamy for Derek Shepherd and McSteamy for yeah. that other guy. HAHHAHAH. :P he's hot though, when he got out of the bloody shower i swear! the steam was coming from him, NOT THE BLOODY SHOWER! HAIHAIHAI. XP yeah.

garr. i've lost random things to blog about. XP baboo.

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darlinks.

way back when

thankyouu.