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update, 6.25pm:
scratch that, im definitely sick. definitely definitely sick. GAH. :( this sucks, i hope i can school on Monday. ill be sneaking in Biogesic's per four hours. wish me well!



Examiner 1 : what is you're name?
Me: My name is Marinella.
Examiner 2 : what do your friends usually call you?
Me: they call me Ella.
Examiner 1 & 2 : Ella, Ella, Ella, Eh, Eh, Under My Umbrella. (8)

uhhuh, people they were THAT cool. xD they were these two Melayu girls kan, tapi they had a Brit accent. they asked me stuff my everyday friends would have asked me. mostly about Grey's Anatomy, New York City and Heatherette (my favourite series, if i had a free ticket to anywhere where would i go? and my favourite fashion brand.)
i think i aced it, now let me commence the worrying for the BM Oral's on the 26th, and my mocks this coming Saturday. AIYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

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yesterday, Andy came to school. :) ish, i missed the guy.
and when i walked out of the classroom, guess who i saw? guess who was wearing a black striped shirt, with jeans? GUESS WHOSE FRIGGIN TALLER THAN ME ALREADY THAT I REACH HIS NECK SAJA?!
Lil Bryan, that's who. but he seriously, seriously. SERIOUSLY isnt even LITTLE anymore!
last year, he was form1. and his voice hasnt cracked so i used to find it adorably childish the way he said "ELLLAAAAA." last year, he reached my shoulder. or he was at least shorter than me, now i reach his neck saja!
he isnt little anymore! ish. if you're asking, why we call him Lil Bryan, cause.. there's two Bryan's, Bryan the manwhore we loved, and the Lil Bryan. so yeah!
gosh, he's big now.

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i am so seriously takut for my brother you know, cause he's like. really really sick, he dint even come to school today. and i was so takut for myself that i was sick too that i brought a Biogesic with me.
truth is, i KNOW im sick already. i have a splitting headache i smile to, and im freezing on the inside. im just really raelly really good at hiding it, but on the inside i feel like going home and collapsing in my bed, and dream and dream and dream about Jol. SHH, DONT TELL MOMMY.

today, i skip the morning kay? cause like, i hung with Ruth and Siew's iPod mostly.
i think i need to get myself an iPod, like srsly. cause, kan, i know how to use iPod's na! i borrow Siew's iPod, Fatin's iPod Video, Devin and Fifah's iPod Shuffle's. so yeah, i want an iPod. :D
anyway, after that. we waited goodness knows how long before they called hte first person in, Siew.
this Ruth made it rain, like a bitch. :( freaked the babes out man!
OH, OH. i got a picture of Lafus with a cool pink top hat, from ________ [she's takut Fuss will kill her XD]. ill post it when i can, but it looks rugged kaliahhh. haha.

and then you know, while me and Ruth were walking around the compound. i wanted to get in class to check out the list kan, what my number was. and then the kids were going out. and we found Justin crying. GAHHHH, I FELT SO BLOODY MAD WHEN I SAW MY NEPHEW-SON-GUY-PERSON CRYING YOU KNOW. GRRRRR.
i asked what happened, and his friend said that a classmate pushed him. grr. and then, on the way out kan, Ruth accidentally bumped the guy who pushed Justin. Ruth was like "sorry!" and the kid was like "OI, HAIYAHHH!" SO RUDE I TELL YOU, I SHOULDA PUSHED THE ASSHOLE DOWN.
first he makes Justin cry, and he's totally rude to my bestfriend. grr. i was mad bah.

after Oral's, mommy and uncle picked me up. we dropped Uncle at the barbers and went to QLap Mall to get that $25.5010.00 bag i fell for last night. it's really really pretty i tell you. :D it's a handbag, by the way.
and then mommy bought another shirt, so i was in search of tops. i found many, i bet you that. BUT THEY WERE ALL 25.00+!!!
and mommy only had ten dollars in her pocket, zero dollars in mine. :( GRRRR.
in the end, i didnt buy any tops. :( and i sighted my pretty starry colourful Vans that i want like a bitch, but will never get. :( i HATE windowshopping. it breaks my heart. :(

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i dont think ill be online tonight, i'll be YFing. so maybe at ten - ish? if you know, im not exhausted enough. :) which i probably wont be for my online pals! :D
besides, i think i've spoken to Niks at least once erry night these past weeks. i dont wanna break the record lah. ;)

im missing you like a bitch. :( can you say, clingy? gah.


ish! his name's Justin! :D
my nephew-son-guy-person! his name's JUSTIN! GAH, adorable.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTH TAN CHUAN CHEEN!!
have fun being fifteen, bestfriend. ;)

• JayBee is home alone with the brother until 11pm, and is mentally reminding herself to lock the doors before she or her brother falls asleep.
• JayBee is mentally kicking herself, over and over and over and over and over and OVER for not studying for mocks. which is in, what? 2 weeks.
• JayBee is freaking out about the fact that her Oral's on Saturday. and possibly, B.Melayu also. Selamat malam, nama saya ialah Marinella dan saya boleh cakap Bahasa Melayu sangat bagus. MY ASS LAR, EVEN THAT WAS ALL WRONG. nooooo.
  
• JayBee is happy Andy is online. :)
  
• JayBee is trying to get used to Chaddy calling her Joel. O.O"
  
• and finally, JayBee is missing Jol like a bitch. even if he's only a text message away, the pictures from Niks and Aime are not enough. :( i need to see him, bah. seeing him makes me happy. seriously, ask Lafus. or Aime, their the ones i nudge when i see him out the window. gah.

holy shit, MOCK'S ARE NEXT WEEK!
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU ELLA, WHY ARENT YOU STUDYING?!?!?!
my mind tells me to do things, my body doesnt respond. honestly, it's sad i havent any control over my body. tsk.


how girly are you, woman?



by Joe Jonas, is the song im currently obsessing over right now. i was so happy, when i found this song that's by just him saja. cause, to hear one part of this song, i had to like. listen to Demi Lovato sing her first few verses. i dint dig it so much, but i tuned in for the Joe Jonas part.
and see, i got a solo wan of him! ish! :)

i also got Warwick Avenue by Duffy, which is really sad sorta blues thing. i recommend it, really. :)

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today was a good day, Aime found Harry Phigg! yeahayy.
tapi, my moody little sickness thing came again. this time, during English extra classes. gah. i felt horrible, and my temprature was through the roof. i couldnt tell you how many bathroom trips i made, seriously. this was my moody sick ness thing, that came and went.
i noticed how high my temp was, only after i took my second bite of the curry me and Ruth were sharing.
i was outside, under the hot sun and i was still freezing. i had on Siew's jacket, Jol's hat and a pretty thick P.E. Uni, and i was still cold. i was even colder in the con. room. gah, this moody sickness sucks.
it went on till com class, where i was okay sudah. tapi, i sorta freaked when Fuss, accidentally elbowed me in the face. :/ but it's all good.

went to extra class, and then Joel walked me home. :) adorable, lah, that guy when he's shy. (L)

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yesterday, History was a bunch of laughs really. Mubarak was pissed at the four of us, i swear la. tapi, still fun. Siew, Aims, Me and Ruth were going all nuts really, and i remember at one point. tcher was heading out and said "Ill be back." then when tcher was by the door sudah Ruth went "like the Terminator." and Siew went, in a very rough Terminator-y voice. "ILL BE BACK!!" and yeah. that sent us into a fit of giggles really. :P

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recently,

• Ella has discovered, while talking to both Niks the night before and Aims the morning after, that no matter how much you want to cry, no matter how much you want it out. it wont come out.
  
• Until you start talking about it.
  
• Ella has been referred to by her nephew-son-guy's-person as his big sister. which made her happyhappy.
  
• fallen in love with Joe Jonas' voice.
• panicked countless, countless, countless times about the upcoming mocks and the more upcoming oral's. GAH.
• and tried to do something about it, but it was never engraved in her head as she hoped it would after a reading the same question a billion times.
• Ella has felt sleepy at 9pm.
• and vowed to stay awake thinking about _______ until about midnight, but fell asleep at ten thirty.
  
• talked to someone about drugs and porn in a casual way.
  
• made the boyfriend blush.
• recieved a text message from an ex boyfriend who hates my guts, but apparently, is okay with me now. O.O
• missed (still does!) Andy Chung. :/ and worred (still is) for him.
• had her come and go flu come and go. twice.
  
• discovered Niks' tickle spot[s]. x)
• discovered that i wasnt so invincible, and that Aime knew where my secret tickles spots were. :( and she uses it against me too! gah.
• rewatched My First Romance for the billionth time. yes, it's the Pinoy one starring Heart Evangelista and John Pratts (no i only like the first one, not the Bea and John Lloyd wan.)
• was pissed at Fang Yi, but is okay now. :)
• fell in love with Joel's paperboy hat that is with me, most of the time.
  
• had fun in the Novelty Games with Niks and Andy.
• getting resucked into Grey's Anatomy season3 on Star World, every 4.30-5.30. even if i already watched it, i realize how emotionally attached i get. all the bloody time.
  
• had a dream about me and my pals fighting giant snakes in this weird little mythical castle, in a place far far away with laser swords and guns.
  
• realize that i cant go to sleep alone anymore, because Joel made me realize that though there is light from the windows to keep me feeling safe during the night when the lights are out, someone could be looking into my window. which is, downright scary. thanks a lot, boyfie. O.O"
• leaving to go to sleep at 9.41 pm. how lame.
  

you know what's the absolute worst thing that could happen to me?
well,there are thousands really. but for one, you could leave me alone with my thoughts.
if you leave me alone with these god-forsaken thoughts. i will become all emotional, and moody because i'd realize things i wouldnt have wanted to realize, or remember memories i've locked in my "NEVER OPEN, OOZING WITH ESTROGEN." box.
gah, seriously. i think the reason we chica's are all emotional and easily hurt and shit are because of the estrogen.
BLAME THE ESTROGEN, ISH!

so today, time was seriously slow. considering i woke up at like, 8-ish. my mom was gone after lunch before ONE, that is seriously a never for mommy. tapi, there she was. then, i did studied for an hour or so. then i did my chores, at 2.00pm! gah, i usually procrastinate my chores till three.
then, i found myself with too much time than i like, so i decided to distract myself from the thoughts estrogen would give me.
i cleaned, the house. (yes, i did the chores. but i used up more time than i shoulda.) as in, i moved the furniture around, i vacuumed under the tables, under our beds. i rearranged the furniture till it was perfect. then i mopped the place up, my brother was looking at me like i was a monster really. because it was his job to mop, and his job to push the furniture around. im usually all yell-y at him if he doesnt do it, but today. i'm quiet and i do it.
and then when i find i have nothing else to clean up, i got all piss-y. so i plugged in Camp Rock, and focused on the JoBros. gah, cheered me up i swear. but i went all angry and yell-y at my brother for watching with me. BLAME THE ESTROGEN.
then i put on Step Up 2, the dance moves wow-ed me. and the Robert Hoffman kiss thing at the end made me all happyhappy again. dont ask why, i blame Niks. she made me observe how these celeb's kiss now. gah. HAHA.

what made it all better was, mommy cooked spaghetti tonight. :) ish, spag always makes me feel better.

but at the end of the day, it just comes down to the fact that. nothing's better just yet.

the only thing that cheered me up the whole day was me imagining the men with the estrogen, and the girls all manly. cracked me up. you should try it out. :P

but what made me crack up even more was that Anderson Duncan, who has to be one of the most manly dudes i know, was prescribed some estrogen. apparently he needs to balance his hormones. :P YOU'RE TOO MANLY DUDE! :P

dont know who Anderson Duncan is? you dont need to. it's a codename. HAHA. :P

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also known as Daddy to me. and Ella's dad to the rest of you. :P
i love you, you big forty something year old replica of me! (L)
many more to come okay,
REMEMBER YOU GOTTA WALK ME DOWN THE AISLE ON MY WEDDING DAY.

god only knows when THAT is gonna happen. -.-

everyday, since a couple of weeks ago, someone waits for me outside my classroom during dismissal, and his face just lights up like a Christmas Tree when he sees me go through that door.
the first thing i look for when i get out that door is him, if he's not already running towards me with a big hug on his heels that is.
even when i'm still in class, sitting by the window. he'd look for me through the window and when he spots me would wave with an excited face. i'd wave back, and would literally count the minutes till i would hug that boy again.
it makes me really happy in the pants to know that someone is counting the seconds for me to walk out that door.
he's just adorable, my nephew-son-guy-person. :) the way he dutifully waits outside that door for the bell to ring, for me to walk out that door, if his friends are around him or not. i once heard his friends call him, but he called back that he wanted to stay and wait for me. ish! makes me happy like a clam.
he's absolutely adorable, really. i think he's about six years old, and he's been over to my house twice. which is how me and him know each other. he really is adorable. gah, did i say that already?
another thing, when he comes and hugs me, he just doesnt let go. as in, he hugs you tight first, then he lets go. it's really sweet la. he's adorable. like, seriously. i think i fell in love with him. (L) ish! not in that way. hahaha. but really, he makes me happy as a clam.
almost as much as Jol makes me happy, but not quite.
ish! today made me want a kid. :( especially one like my nephew-son-guy-person! (really, to me and my brother he goes by Auntie Leah's son, cause that's the name of his mom whose close friends with our mother.)

the Novelty Games, i spent with Andy and Niks. with the additions of Jas, Mar and Ruth. but yeah, Jaybee, Andy and Niks were the stars today.
and guess what, me and Niks were being total pedophiles the whole day. well, most times. :P the other times we just wished we had a kid of our own to cheer on. ish!
Andy was like "first you go for gay men, now you guys are being total pedophiles!" HAHA. :P
today was a blast, really. the only downside was me and Niks discussing that thing. you know, that BAD thing. that makes me all emotional and shitty.

gah, he wasnt here today. i was half-wanting him to come, half-not wanting. this is shit la. im getting all emotional now, so i'm going to get off the subject.
what made the day better was seeing my nephew-son-guy-person! and no people, im not getting all pedophile-ish. he's just adorable and makes me happy like a bitch to see his face light up! gah.

im getting all crazy. not pecause of the the nephew-son-guy-person really, just the 'what if's' swirling around my head, and it's making me crazy. i need a break, really. gosh.

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why cant you just talk to me, and make it all better? please?


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darlinks.

way back when

thankyouu.