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i'm currently going through a Thing. a Pink thing. it's really, really weird when everywhere i look and i see something pink i get a warm feeling inside me. HAHA.
i was real mad about yesterday cause kan, i realized my dress wasnt pink. so i payed for it by painting my nails a light pink colour. :) woots.

this is really weird. only now a super-tiny pink leather handbag made me happy. for one, i love those super huge bags. and not leather. -.-

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Background: WELCOME TO CHART ATTACK, AND THE BUBBLING UNDER VIDEO OF THIS WEEK IS DECODE BY PARAMORE, ENJOY!
-insert a couple of seconds here-
Ben: SISTER! SIS! SIS! TWILIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
Ells: OMG, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
-insert a quiet couple of minutes here-

yes, if you havent figured it out, the video of Paramore's Decode was littered with scenes from the movie with Edward Cullen and Bella Swan as it was from the Soundtrack. YAAAAY. this made me happy seeing as my computer friggin hates me and wont let me view the FULL trailer of Twilight on YouTube. BOO. after many many countless attempts.

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yesterday was pretty awesome, but heck was it tiring. if you all have been living under some kind of rock, yesterday was St. George's Gala Night. yes, THAT event that all St. Georgians have been getting ready for maybe, the whole year. woots.
so, if you havent been tuned in to the drama of am i or am i not going to sit down because i sacrificed my 55dollars to Ruth Tan, i was able to make it because Cynthia couldn't come cause she had a meeting. so, i made it instead!

the morning consisted of:

• getting up at 6ish in the morning, to say that it was too early is much of an understatement.
• went to Rizqun round 9ish.
• HAD TO WAIT TILL 10 TO ACTUALLY PRACTISE.
• practised. practised. practised.
• went home.

afternoon :

• went to Mommy's office.
• was bored AND hiding. so i hid under Mommy's desk.
• FELL ASLEEP FOR HALF AN HOUR UNDER MOMMY'S DESK.
• left for the Salon.
  
• where i had my nails done. light pink!
  
• and then i had my hair done into this bun thing. overusing of hair spray and gel made my hair hard and sticky. ugh. at least it looked good.
• recieving a msg from Kuya Ivan that I AM GOING TO SIT DOWN.
• changed into choir uni, stuffed my dress and heels into my new blue bag. not pink. :(
  
• arrived at Rizqun.

night :

• had to wait for HOW LONG for the Chief Guest to come before we could sing.
• sang.
• me and Ruth Tan changed into our dresses, Kuya into his tux.
• sat with Niks, Mar, Jas, Ruth, Teacher Jolene, Kuya Ivan, Joey, Jazzreen and her brother.
  (the others were in the next table)
• ate.
• took pictures.
• went to the bathroom constantly.
  
• -repeat the last three steps over and over and over and over and over.-

so, what happened last night?

1. everyone looked absolutely beautiful in their tuxedo's and dresses.
2. Aims had a bouqet of flowers from Andy, did i mention that he went to Miri just for that??
3. Jazzreen's younger brother, Junior. ;)
4. the waiters were hot. HAHA.
   
5. there was one whole segment and we thought it was some hot performance, turns out it was all for food. HAHA.
6. pictures. pictures. pictures.
7. nobody left before 11.30pm.
8. Niks was happy cause she played matchmaker.
9. SCORRREEEDDD. haha. palui.
   

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i spent this morning trying to FIND Twilight's second book. all over the city. NOTHING. at least it made me happy knowing Junior promised to tell me if he found one. woots.

Izaq: Audrey's soo hot she makes blind people cry! But i'm so hot I make fat people jump in the air and get stuck. xp
Ells: i'm so hot i make babies fart.
Izaq: okay now that's wrong. o.o
Audrey says: that is wrong well,i'm cooler than your fridge. beat that
Ells : I'M COOLER THAN THE SNOW STUCK UNDER YOUR FINGERNAILS.
Izaq : i'm cooler than Alaska
Ells: I'M COOLER THAN SANTA AFTER TAKING A BATH OUTSIDE. IN THE NORTHPOLE.
Izaq: I'M COOLER THAN AUDREY. OHHHH TOP THAT!
Audrey: YOU PEOPLE SUCK LOLLIPOPS,MAN!
Ells: SO? LOLLIPOP'S ARE AWESOME.
Izaq: YEAH IF ITS MY LOLLIPOP. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA
Ells:OMG, EW. YOURS IS SHAPED LIKE A LOLLIPOP??? NO, IZAQ, NOO.
Izaq: HAHAHAHAHAAH WTF ARE WE TALKING ABOUT?
Audrey: both of you are seriously NOT right in the head.. seriously.
Ells :THAT'S WHY YOU LOVE US RIGHT AUDREY?
Izaq: NOO AUDI DOESNT LOVE YOU. MAYBE SHE DOES. BUT SHE LOVES ME MOAR.
Ells: NOOO, SHE LOVES ME.
Izaq:STILL, THE RATIO GOES LIKE THIS:
Ells: noooo, i ROCKKK MORE.
Izaq: I'm still king of punchlines

Dear Izaq,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when i tripped on sesame seeds at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on Manchester United's goal keeper. I'm sure you're open enough to understand the middle east. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember Oprah Winfrey imitations .
Good luck on your short term leave from jail,
Ells.

reason for the really REAAAALLLY candid letter to Amadeus (THAT'S HIS FIRST NAME!! :D) Isaac?

tagging. not my fault that you like my name and the word 'tag' in one sentence too much, Zaq, you're one of them. xP HAHAAHA.


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Name the latest book you bought :
Husbands by Adele Parks and Hex and The Single Girl by Valerie Frankel

What is your fullname?
Marinella Lyel Oca Iballa.

Name the person you want to meet in real life or the first time:
CHACE CRAWFORD. :) or ed westwick. (L)

Christina or Britney?
Brit Spears. Christina is fugly now.

Do you do your own laundry?
it's pretty easy. dump it into the big hole and press a few buttons. it goes spin, and spin and wet and wet and then it's done. :D

The most exciting place you wanna go?
NYC? :)

Hugs or kisses?
it isnt good enough without the other? eh, eh? HAHA.

8 things I am passionate about :
Music
Fiction
Gossip Girl
FRIENDS
Mr. Chocolate? :3
One Tree Hill
CHOCOLATE.

8 things you say too often :
"OH MY GODD!!"
"WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS."
"YAAAAAAAAAAAY."
"AUMG, THAT IS SOOO COOL."
"UH, LIKE. WHATEVER."
"HAAAAAAAAAI."
"chace crawford is the most gorgeous human being in the planet."
"i'm hungry."

8 books i've read recently :
Twilight by Stephenie Meyer
Hex and The Single Girl by Valerie Frankel.
Husbands by Adele Parks.
Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom.
A Wrinkle In Time Madeleine L'Engle.
Lost For Words by Lorelei Mathias
Memoirs Are Made Of This by Swan Adamson.
Shopaholic and Baby by Sophie Kinsella.

8 songs I could listen to over and over again :
Uptown Girl by Westlife.
Sway by Bic Runga.
Hot N Cold by Katy Perry.
Is It You by Cassie
Pull Shapes by The Pipettes.
Secret by The Pierces
Rich Girl by The Virgins.
I Am What I Am by Jonas Brothers.

8 things I learned last year :
Never Judge a book by its cover.
never turn your cel phone off. emergency, y'know.
people always leave.
it isnt who you are that matters, its what you did.
if you fail, try try again.
NEVER don't do your chores.
never lie to your mother why you once cut yourself.
secrets eat you from the inside.

Tag 8 people :
Aims
Daddy Kimmy
Joel
Niks
Sarr
Siew
Audrey
Chelsayy.




i swear they could not find a more perfect boy for Edward Cullen. seriously.

sadly, i cant say the same for Bella Swan. howell.









t'was a good day
-Niks. :)

it really was. i'm not really up to giving details. i always have this thing where i make situation's sound less fun than they really are. but today cheered me up, really. last night, it was Grey's Anatomy. today, it's my friends. really, it wasn't even surprising.

ill try and detail it a little more? :)

• woke up grudgingly early for the holidays, 6am. put on mommy's black slacks (like i have any of my own, seriously, i WEAR light jeans and skirts.), the SGS choir shirt and my old school shoes. yes, it was an all black-attire.
  
• headed to school, and into the performer's room. reread Twilight a million times before Ivan TRIED to get interested in it but to no avail. then, Jana borrowed it and she liked it resulting her to start begging to Teacher Jojo (her father and our choir teacher) to buy her the book. haha.
  
• me and the girls (And Kuya Ivan) groaned in response to Teacher's commands to tuck in our shirts. after attempting to fold it and try to not get noticed by T. Jojo, me and the girls reported to one of the teachers for make-up.
  
• people started coming in, we sang the SGS song and the National Anthem, then we were free to do whatever. me and Ruth chose to sit at the back and fall asleep to teh performances. we didnt plan to fall asleep, we just did. we decided to walk around before we started snoring. no offense, the cultural dances? we didnt stay for that. we walked out at Shanti's speech.
  
• and joined the 3A Pinay's at the canteen area, where we ate. well, i watched them eat. i changed into my Teddy Bear Happy Girl shirt as i like to call it. later, Teacher Jolene came and ate with us as an attempt to escape the performers for a bit. haha. i did my weird hand tricks and Mae, Angela and MJ assumed that my bones are made of elastic or something.
• after that, apparently the guests were allowed to enter the exhibit. we tried to help round, i avoided seeing Niks' mother for.. reasons. HAHA. me and Niks found a hot guy. we even found out his name! woots. we stayed until most of the people cleared out to the refreshment room. me and Ruth Tan messed around Andy's laptop with the music with the DJ program. xP
• me and Ruth went to the compound and hung out with the Form 4's (highlight of the day) during which the following occured:

1. the rope used to tie the banner onto the stage was removed and used as a skipping rope by Mar, Jas, Andy, T Jolene and Joel.
   
2. i was piggybacked by Niks.
3. piggbacked by Kimmy.
4. piggybacked by Joel.
5. girl talked with Niks and T Jolene.
6. experimented on Joel's and Andy's butt. results? their super soft.
7. complimented Kimmy.
8. realized the uber-huge tear on the front of my pants.
9. tried oh-so very hard to keep my legs together.
10. failed, was given Joel's shirt to cover up.
    
11. Hannah arrived in her skinny jeans, and gave me a pigg yback.
12. result? further ripping of my pants.
    
13. made fun of Hannah's pink stuffed toy. there was so much wrong with it. x)
    
14. went home. with super ripped slacks.
    
15. there was an issue when Andy wouldn't hug Aime.
    
16. Niks was mad she missed when Andy kissed Aime. haha.
    
17. camwhored. a lott.

im meeting Aime later on at the Mall. 4.30 ish? :) woots. g'bye people.


my frustration's gone. hurray? not quite.
now, i'm just plain angry. and hurt. angry and hurt. not the best combination?

i dont even understand whats wrong. actually I do, and it hurts. so very badly. but i dont feel like saying out loud. that would just make it too real.

even if i know it's already too real. whenever my friends bring it up, i find myself hastily changing the subject. because i hate thinking about it. but sooner or later, it's going to come. so what am i going to do then?

so what happened now? seriously. i'm probably over reacting again. like always, and in the end there's actually absolutely nothing wrong. but this time its different? it feels different, certainly. but i know there's something wrong.

it kills me.

i need a hug? and it's gotta be from the right person. hah.

"I infuriate myself," he said gently. "The way i can't seem to keep from putting you in danger. My very existence puts you at risk. Sometimes I truly hate myself. I should be stronger, I should be able to - "
I placed my hand over his mouth. "Don't"
He took my hand, moving it from his lips, but holding it to his face.
"I love you." he said. "It's a poor excuse of what I'm doing, but it's true."
It was the first time he'd said he loved me - in so many words. He might not realize it, but i certainly did.

-page 319; Twilight.

I'm done with Twilight by the way. woots. it's awesome. srsly.

twilight fever has kicked in. i know it took the female (and male) world by storm months ago.
but really, i've always been quite a lagger.

since my frustrations have done everything except vanish into thin air (i'm not that fortunate), im going to dedicate this blog post to Twilight. Goodness knows how many you've encountered from other bloggers already.

Twilight is unique. It's engrossing, and it's absolutely mind-blowing. even if i am only at page 277 of 434 pages in the book. It's probably the best love story i've read, and that's saying a lot seeing as my book shelf is stacked with every genre related to romance ever imagined.

Bella Swann is interesting and different, she's new in town and the boys in her school all want a piece of her. Meanwhile, the Cullens seem to form a clique of their own. the Cullens are reserved, quiet, and they keep to themselves. yet, their most strikingly beautiful. as far as i know, there are 5 of them. 4 of them are paired off with each other. the last yet to have been paired, Edward himself.

the first day of Bella's school, she was drawn to Edward. but Edward seemed hostile, violent with her. she simply could not understand why. and it was only her luck that during Biology, the seat by him was the only one free. even in close proximity, Edward tried so very hard to stay as far as possible. Bella was hurt.

But as the day's passed, they became fast friends. soon, Edward confides in her about everything. about how different his family is. about why his family is avoided. Turns out, an old town myth, the Cullens are vampires. Turns out, the myth is far from a myth.

Bella finds herself falling for this Mr. Perfect. and so he. which he claims is not safe, that he is being selfish. because apparently, Bella is his favourite 'flavour.' and at any time he might let his guard down and hurt her. which is sad. so very sad, how their in love with each other but his instincts get in the way.

Not only that, Bella's friends dont think it's a very good idea being friends or anything else with The Cullens. and Edward's family are starting to detest him for breaking the rules. for falling in love with someone not of their kind.

thats how far i am, currently. all my Internet browser's, except this one and Facebook, reads Twilight somewhere. IMDB, Twilight. Photobucket, Twilight. Zedge, Twilight. how obsessive. woots.

does it help that the author decribes Edward as absolutely mind blowingly perfect? no. and the person playing HIM in the movie is also equally mind blowingly handsome?

hmm. the first image that popped into my head when i tried to picture Edward was Josh's. how unusual. when i shook that, Ed Westwick (CHUCKKK!!) came to head. hmm.



how there are just a bunch of photo's on my phone that is waiting to be transferred to the computer and later uploaded to cyber world, and this is the time your USB cable decides to go berserk.

which also sucks because the USB cable is kind of important. as in, it's Chewy's. i just never gave it back. heh. sorry, Chew? :)

sadly, my impatience towards my USB cable isnt the only thing frustrating the brains out of me. unfortunately, it's too much of a personal matter that i dont feel comfortable posting it for all the world to see.

actually, it's one of these things that i doubt i'll let slip to anyone. only the best friend's notice and actually force it out of me. ho'well.

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Aikks came over my place today. I brought her to school earlier. she quite liked it. even after the fact that i had to leave her for a bit while i was at choir. thank goodness she had Caryle around? heh.
we spent the day in front of the television, practically. in fact, i am pretty sure i've transformed her into a Gossip Girl. i'm working on getting her past the 'Chuck's a Jerk' image to the 'He's so Sexy, I Can't Help But Smile At His Irony.' image. it's not going to take much. haha.
she's rooting hopelessly for Serena and Dan. and she thinks that Chuck and Blair are meant for one another. she was happy when Lord Marcus bla bla was caught having make out fest with his Step mom the Duchess. woots.

sadly, pictures cannot be posted today. :(

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im on the third chapter of Twilight. they made Edward Cullen sound absolutely flawless. making me wish to meet an Edward Cullen type some day. :D Twilight is sounding pretty awesome already. :)

-excerpt of Twilight.

goodnight, sadly i shan't bid my frustration's the same.

HOMG, why am i talking this way??

darlinks.

way back when

thankyouu.